Author: Clementine

He’s here!

Introducing Reuben Eric James Crowther, the cutest damn baby the world did ever see (if I don’t say so myself!). Where to start! In the month since he arrived so much has happened. It sounds cliche, but we are absolutely besotted — as you’d expect any new parents to be. The joy that comes with growing your family to include a bouncing bundle of love is immense and more than I could have ever imagined. Our little chunky monkey or Roo-Bear as I’ve so affectionately knick-named him, made his grand entrance on Monday the 12th of February 2018 at 4:26pm / 37 weeks 6 days gestation. In that minute, our incredibly precious baby boy came into the world looking up at me with curious wide-eyes. Ever so calmly, he surveyed the room and people around him before nestling into my chest and realising the sweetest little cry. Cue heart melt and tears from Aaron and I. After months of questioning what he’d look like, feeling little kicks and jabs from the inside, and a year of prayer, …

Confession time: pregnancy is kicking my ass

I am here today to confess — pregnancy is kicking my ass. Even typing these words is a sigh of relief. But before I get into the nitty gritty, I have to first declare that my intention isn’t to whinge or make light of how lucky I am to be pregnant. I know how fortunate I am to even be here right now, and I would go through anything just to hold bub in my hands. I will never take for granted the gift I’ve been given.  My post today is simply to speak honestly about my pregnancy experience. I feel guilty admitting that I’m finding pains in the journey to motherhood, as it’s something I want so incredibly deeply. But to paint a picture of total bliss and peace is a lie. For me, growing a human has been hard work. From the emotional rollercoaster that comes from the fear of another loss and the physical beating my body is taking, to the irrational freak-outs I have where I question how on earth I’m …

All the pretty things

As we get closer to beb’s arrival, my urge to nest is growing as rapidly as my belly. And while a few new dresses accommodate the bump, the home part isn’t as straight forward. For those not in the know, a few months ago Aaron and I said goodbye to our sunny three-bedroom apartment for a smaller place as the space was unnecessary. Little did we know, those extra rooms would be needed much faster than anticipated. As a result, another move is on the cards, and just like I did with the wedding, full planning mode is in gear — only this time when it’s go time, I’ll be seven months pregnant and it will be summer. Someone fetch me a frosty fruit. With a clean slate of potential baby rooms in front of us, I’ve become addicted to building out ideas. Let’s just say I never quite got the whole Pintrest movement until now. Since finding out we’re having a little boy, blue and different hues of blue (exciting I know), have been my …

Holy cow, we’re having a baby!

Well the secret is finally out and don’t it feel good. There’s a little bean growing inside my belly and in a mere 20 weeks Aaron and I will be parents (otherwise known as adulting to the next level). It’s something I’ve been wanting to share for months, but as friends, family and those who can read between the lines would know (see this post), I’ve been a little trigger shy and for good reason. As a family, Aaron and I had our most heartbreaking time to date this February. At ten weeks pregnant we lost our first bub. I won’t spend time going into it, other than to say it was the saddest thing I’ve ever experienced. But embracing my inner optimist, I believe that there is always a greater plan in play and without our little one returning home to heaven, we wouldn’t have this beautiful bub growing away today (most frequently referred to as Lenny the lentil in the Crowther household). And isn’t he growing! (Catch that? It’s a BOY! So excited). …

365 days later

Despite it being nearly a year since Aaron and I got hitched (can you believe it — I can’t!) it occurred to me that I never shared with you our photos. Given most of the nice snaps we have are from that day, it seems a bit ridic for them to stay hidden away. It also feels odd to share photos without background or explanation, so excuse the gushiness that follows (I won’t be offended if you tune out now). Like any loved up couple, we both claim our wedding day was the best ever. And to us, it was! After months of planning, when the 4th finally arrived it was all a bit surreal. A mixed bag of nerves, excitement, and joy. We choose a spring day as we figured it was our best bet at a slice of sunshine in the typically chilly but beautiful Southern Highlands. And lucky for us, our bet paid off. Like some type of dream, the days leading up to our nuptials were sunny and glorious, and our day followed …

One day at a time

I recently learnt that you can’t take anything for granted. Nothing in this life is a given, no matter how strong or promising it looks, or how desperately you crave it. When pain hits, and life’s course makes a sudden, abrupt change in direction, finding your feet on the new journey you’ve been assigned to is like trying to walk for the first time. I’m a strong believer that we are guided through life. That there is someone watching over us, helping us find the right path. The problem is that path, it doesn’t always lead to where we think it will. There are twists and turns, lessons to be learnt, mountains to climb, and deep valleys to cross. There are also other influences, human influences, that shape or shift what we experience. While the direction may change, time never stops. We are always constantly moving forward, and there is no unlearning what we’ve experienced.  Because of this, each step builds us. It changes who we are and the type of people we’ll become. This is why we …

A cool change

Sydney this summer has been somewhat of a furnace. I love hot, salty days where the beach beckons and the sun goes down late in the evening, but there’s nothing like a cool storm to save the day. Yesterday that sweet relief finally arrived. It’s no surprise to anyone who’s lived through it, but this summer has been incredibly warm; in fact the hottest on record… ever.  So when the clouds cracked and the rain finally hit the ground, you could almost hear our garden sing out in praise. I was in our sunroom with the windows wide open when that moment arrived with force. Out of nowhere, the air started to change and a sense of calm swept over Mosman Bay. A tranquility that’s been noticeably absent fell upon us as the birds, bugs and activity that heat brings abruptly relaxed into the cool shift. Perhaps the moment was particularly welcome in our house as I get an itch when things sit still for a little too long, the heat being no exception. With this all said, there seems to …